I think looking back even beyond that, even just suicidal thoughts and you know, driving my car close to a cliff, like, 'Oh, if this goes off the cliff, it's not that big of a deal.' I don't feel that anymore.' 'And I think for me, that was my wake up call of like, this is your life - take back control. 'I didn't have the intentions of waking up, and I did,' he said. that I woke up and I didn't think I was going to wake up.' I would have rather died than say I'm gay,' he admitted, later adding that he knew he was 'different since the age of 6.'Ĭontinuing, Underwood elaborated about previously having suicidal thoughts, saying, 'There was a moment in L.A. 'I think overall the reason why now is because I got to place where I didn't think I was ever going to share this. RELATED: The Bachelor's Colton Underwood Reveals He Once Questioned His Sexuality After Years of BullyingĪsked why he was choosing this moment to reveal the news, the former football player said he had reached 'a place for me in my personal life that was dark and bad.'
